Let’s talk about Mental Health during this Lockdown…

Hey guys, so about two months ago now, I asked for some inspiration or ideas of what to write about. A lot of the suggestions were about mental health during lockdown and mental health in general (which I ain’t going to cover just yet). My last post was in April, I said I was going to be posting a lot more and writing a lot more, I only really did one of those things. Don’t ask me why, I know I had the free time, but I honestly couldn’t tell you why I didn’t post. I wrote a lot though (productivity 101).

Lockdown has been harsh on people’s mental health. It has been and still is, a really weird time to live through. I found that I spent most of my lockdown reading and writing, but also sleeping a lot and just wasting my time in general. There were productive days, but also some not so productive days. A few weeks in to lockdown and I was talking to a friend about how annoyed I was with myself for not using my time more wisely, and she said to me, “It’s a weird time right now, the world has come to a stand still, you don’t have to be productive everyday during a PANDEMIC.” She was 100% right. I didn’t waste all of lockdown, when I think about it, I didn’t really waste any of it. We need to have selfcare days, we need to have days when we just chill. It’s okay to spend all day reading a book or watching movies, maybe not every day – but as she said, who cares, we’re living through a pandemic, there is no rulebook for this kind of thing. And if there is, someone needs to send it to me. Please.

What a weird time, hey? I found myself relaxing more during lockdown, I wasn’t rushing around to get things done, I didn’t have to spend my weekends wisely anymore – everyone suddenly had a lot more free time. No more rushing around, no more stressing out, it was kind of nice. In a weird sort of way.

As things are slowly going back to a new kind of normal, we should take at least one thing from this: SELF CARE IS IMPORTANT. Your mental health is important and self care has a lot to do with that. I found that before all this happened, I didn’t have a lot of “me” time anymore, I was stressing a lot and always rushing around. But I hadn’t finished reading a book in so long, and I hadn’t watched any movies properly, or did anything that would be considered as looking after myself (self care wise). But during lockdown, I managed to read 4 books, watch a ton of movies, write a few blog posts (not that I actually posted any of them), and spent a few evenings in face-masks (that’s my version of selfcare).

It’s still early days, but I’m going to attempt to do more things for me when I have my days off. I’m trying to read more, whether that’s on my days off or on my lunch break. I’m just trying to take care of my mental health more in general.

Over the past couple of years, I’ve stopped talking to people that are toxic for my mental health, I felt bad at first. (I should probably mention here that they stopped talking to. I noticed that they didn’t put as much effort in anymore, so I did the same, and we ended up not talking at all anymore). But then I realised that no one is more important than what goes on inside my head (I don’t know if that makes sense or if that makes me sound cocky, its not meant to sound cocky.) – Obviously people matter to me, didn’t want it to sound like they don’t. What I’m trying to say is, these past couple of years, I’ve learnt that not all school friendships need to survive if there not good for you. The people that do care about you, will show you, as you show them, this doesn’t mean talking everyday – Cause after school, life starts, people get busy. But it will become clear to you who cares for you and who doesn’t. It’s not worth stressing over the people that don’t, or the people that do things on purpose to upset you – remember, and I know it’s hard to remember sometimes – but your real friends, they won’t make horrible comments about you and try to pass it off as caring about you, your real friends won’t do things that seem toxic.

I know in school it seems that friendship groups are big, but they don’t stay big your entire life – and if they do, congrats, looks like you’ve found a great bunch of people! What I’m trying to say is – Not all friendship groups need to be big. Every person that I have in my life as of now, that I still talk to, their not toxic, and that’s the way it should be. There is no point keeping someone toxic in your life to make them happy, it took me a long time to realise this.

I’m probably rambling a bit, yeah? My main point, toxic people aren’t going to help your mental health and although you may have been friends with them for years, it really is not worth your mental health. Friendships grow apart and two things can happen, you can either be civil and remember the good times but no longer be friends, or you can try and keep that person around you, even though they’ve become toxic for whatever reason. Honestly, I tried the second one, I stayed friends with someone for two years longer than we should have, the friendship grew apart and we should have just left it at that. Instead I found that I was hating every single moment I spent with this person because of how toxic they had become, because of how they treated other people.

I’m defiantly rambling. Toxic people have a negative affect on your mental health. Most people know that – it took me the longest time to realise that and realise who the toxic people were in my life. I found that when I stopped talking to those people and stopped caring about what they thought a weight was lifted from my shoulders. It makes a difference to your mental health, a REAL difference. It also makes a massive difference to your mood, I found myself happier, which sort of says something without having to say anything (if that makes sense).

It doesn’t make you a bad person for wanting to look after your own mental health, it took me a long time to realise all of this. I don’t even know why it took me so long to realise it.

My other main point of this post is that our mental health in general is SO important, and we need to take more care about it. Work and school are important but so is your mental health. In the past, I have found myself prioritising one or the other, I’d have a deadline coming up and suddenly self care would go out the window. I know it’s not just me that does this, a lot of people put their mental health second or even third to anything in their life, but we need to stop doing that. Our mental health is so so important!

Although, lockdown is sort of (not really) coming to a end, and the new kind of normal is starting to begin properly – We need to remember to prioritise our health, not just our physical health (but that is important too!!) but also our mental health.

Right, I’m going to wrap that up there. I’ve been on a bit of a rant. My main main point: YOUR MENTAL HEALTH IS IMPORTANT! It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything but I’m going to try and post again soon (fingers crossed). Hope everyone is okay in this crazy, crazy time. Stay safe! Here’s to hoping that things are sort of back to normal soon. Much love – Ally xx

15 Thing You Can Do While On Lockdown…

Hey guys, so I got a few messages back from some of you about my last post, so since then I’ve decided to write a short list of the things you can do to keep you busy while on lockdown. I know that there is a longer list of things that people can’t do, but when this is all over, and it will be over at some point (Even if it doesn’t seem that way) – You will be able to do those things again and it’ll be so worth it (Sort of – Don’t think that’s the right word to use).

15 Things that you can do while on Lockdown:
1. Fall back in love with a hobby that you might not have been able to do for a while.
2. Go for a walk or a jog – Just stay 2 metres away from others (Got to be safe)
3. Read a book or two.
4. Catch up on that series that you haven’t been able to watch in a while.
5. Do the odd jobs that you’ve been putting off.
6. Redecorate or move things around in your room / house.
7. Talk to your friends and family over Facetime – Life gets in the way sometimes, which means you may not be able to talk to your friends or family as much as you want to, use this time now to catch up.
8. That thing that you’ve put off doing because you’ve been so busy with life? Take the time to do it now (Unless you can’t due to lockdown)…
9. Go through your things, are there things that you no longer need? Sort it out so that after this is over, they can go to the charity shop.
10. Play board games with your family or complete a puzzle.
11. Don’t forget self care – take care of yourself physically, mentally, emotionally, ect. This is probably the most important thing right now!
12. Start a new hobby? There’s so many things you can do inside with very little equipment.
13. Practice something that you want to be good at.
14. Chill out and enjoy the weather in your garden.
15. We have been given a pause on life, use this time to rest and recharge, to get creative, to do things you wouldn’t usually have time to do.

So there’s the list. Take this time that we have been given and use it as a positive. I’m using this time to write more, read more and do things that I have been putting off for a while. I’m sure the list could be longer, leave a comment below and let me know what your spending this lockdown doing.

This was meant to be posted a week after my last post as it’s been in my drafts for that long but it seems odd, especially as this isn’t what I usually post, but then again, this is an odd situation. Sorry for the delay, there will be more posts soon.

Until next time. Stay home and stay safe. Much love – Ally xx

It’s been a while… (Again)

Hey guys, so a few weeks ago, I started drafting ideas for my blog, of different blog posts that I have in mind. One of these was “Everything is finally okay…”

Well… If you live in the UK, or anywhere for that matter, you’ll know that everywhere has pretty much gone into lockdown due to this virus. So although I was finally getting there with where I am in life, things have come to a stand still. No more work for a while, no more physical classes (we had our first online class the other night), no more seeing family or friends for a little while. It’s all a bit of a mess. But everything was okay until this kicked in..

I’ve got a lot of free time now, and quite frankly it’s driving me a bit crazy (as I’m sure it is everyone else). Although if a few good things could come from this, its that I’ve been given the chance to do things I don’t usually have a lot of time for, I’m writing more, or trying to that is. I’ve read more chapters of books than I have in a very long time – not because I haven’t wanted to read or write, but because I haven’t really had the time to. Not that I’m complaining. It’s just nice to be able to do the things that I don’t usually have time for, you know?

While having more time to write, means having more time to put blog posts out to the world. This is only going to be short and sweet until the next one. But let me know in the comments below, or the comments of wherever you got this link from (Probably from my social media), what are you doing to keep yourself busy? Are you doing things that you don’t usually have time for? Have you picked up a new hobby or are you trying something new? Let me know, it’d be interesting to read.

Also, big love to those that have kept on bugging me (I appreciate it) about my blog, I have been thinking about it, just haven’t had the time. But this time now will give me more of a chance to write. (You know who you are).

Until next time, stay safe, stay inside and stay mindful of others (always). Don’t forgot to check up on your friends and family, or even those that you know might be a little lonely. Be back soon. Much love – Ally xx

2020, Here we come…

It’s been 5 years since I started my blog! Thank you so so much for all the support xx

The end of 2019 is coming near and I’m so ready for 2020. New opportunities and experiences are coming, I just know it. There’s no other way to look at it than positive.

I’ve already wrote a post about how my year has gone but I thought I’d just post a little update. I spent my entire year, taking a little 1 second (sometimes 2 or 3 seconds) of video per day from January 1st to now (31st December), just so I could document it (for fun). Although anyone that sees the video (I may post it on my blog Facebook page), may think that my year was quite boring. It is one second out of a whole 24 hours, for 365 days of the year. Looking back at it, I have a just one regret, I didn’t get to see my friends as much as I would have liked to, but life is busy. I feel like I spent most of 2019 in a classroom or sat in front of a textbook, the outcome of it being like that was that I got the result that I wanted.

This year hasn’t been as great as it could have been (see my last blog post if you want to know more), but then again it hasn’t been the worst year. I’ve met so many amazing new people, (some of them don’t even know how amazing they really are), that have welcomed me in with open arms (literally). I have never felt so accepted and at home as I do with these people and that says something about where I am.

2020 is going to be a good year, it may start off rough but I’m hoping it’ll work out. Life can only go as well as you want it to go, I suppose.

So with that being said, I just want to wish all my friends and family a very happy new year! You got this!

Keeping this very short but sweet. Happy new year everyone! I’ll be back very soon with a new blog post. Much love, Ally xx

It’s almost 2020 and this year has been a mess…

Hey all, I’ve wrote this and rewrote this maybe 100 times, maybe not this post but ones similar to it. I haven’t posted since July, I’ve wanted to, I just haven’t had the words to say what I wanted to say. It’s almost the end of 2019 and although I said I defiantly wasn’t going to say “this year is going to be my year”, I secretly hoped it would be. I mean, there’s still time and I’ve accomplished some amazing things this year, even if others don’t think their that great. I think they are.

This year has truly been a mess. January was the most unmotivated month, it started off really well but then things cooled down and weren’t that great, (I ain’t going to go into it but if you know then you know). February, we lost our first family pet and my Great Gran.

I’m going to confess to something that only a few people know, I never wanted a dog, dogs scared me. I liked dogs when I was little until I stroked one that bit me, that was kind of when I got scared off by them. My brother and my dad would always stroke dogs when we were out in town or whatnot and I’d always walk far far away from them. Until my dad decided we were getting a dog, that I defiantly didn’t want (11 year old me was harsh lol). But we got her anyway, my brother named her Poppy. She was a staffy, people were scared of her but my fear of dogs started to disappear, and now when my dad or brother lean down to stroke a dog so do I. ‘Cause although I may not have wanted her, she did change my life (as cheesy as that sounds), she put muddy paw prints on my bed, chewed my socks and drove me mad, but she was the best first pet that I could ever of had.

We lost my Great Gran in the same week as we lost Poppy and although we knew she was ill and wasn’t going to get any better it still hit home. She was great, everything a gran should be❤

March was a little bit better, my amazing brother turned 18, we celebrated with expensive ice cream (There’s not a better way to celebrate it – don’t even argue with me).

April came and I was starting to get ready (properly) for exams and final essays – anyone that’s in education will already know how stressful this really is. I also started a new job in April that I enjoyed, lets be honest, working with kids who think your cool, when you most defiantly are not, is one of the best things (p.s. I already know I ain’t cool, I agree haha).

May was quite hard, I lost my Great Nan after a long and difficult fight with Dementia. We knew it was coming but that wasn’t any easier once she had passed. I was quite close to my Great Nan growing up, she’d get us in trouble playing drums on the saucepans in the kitchen, or she’d tell us really cool and interesting things about what it was like to be in the Land Army during World War 2. She was one of the nicest people I had in my life and although we knew it was going to happen eventually, that didn’t make it any easier.

To have this happen in May and then get prank calls, it didn’t make this any better – some of my friends are going to hate what I say next (I ain’t defending them, just making a point). To whoever it was that was prank calling me (and I’m 90% sure I know who you were), I know you didn’t know that this was going on in my life, not to ask for sympathy or whatever (cause I don’t want it or need it) – not that it would have made a difference, you probably still would have said those awful things. BUT it just goes to show that you shouldn’t do those shitty things, everyone is going through a silent battle that you know nothing about and although in your defence you didn’t know, that’s not the point. It’s not cool to be cruel, be kind. In a perfect world everyone would be a lot nicer to one another. Hope you think about that next time.

The rest of May and June were just hard work, I got through all the exams I had and finished those essays – I finally finished college, the stress from that was finally over (sort of, results day was looming).

July hit with some bad news, which I ain’t going to talk about, just know (although everyone already knows this), Cancer sucks.

My brother also graduated in July – which I’m super proud of, he proved everyone wrong and is doing great. Just goes to show that not everyone knows what their talking about, especially when people say “you will NEVER accomplish…”. Have a little faith.

August came and so did results day, I passed my course, better than I thought I would and accomplished something that I thought I never would. I worked so hard throughout the whole year with a lot of things that could and probably should have held me back but that was the best thing to come out of this. That I done something that I got told I would never achieve.

September hit and I turned 21, I’ve never spent a week celebrating my birthday but I can’t tell you how great that week was. I got to spend the best time with the most amazing people! I can’t thank them anymore than I already have for making it great.

October and November were spent volunteering for The Royal British Legion, where I met some of the most interesting people, it happens every year, I get to listen to more and more interesting stories by the most amazing people. Heroes is probably a better word for them.

So in July, I got a new job, working with the most amazing people. I couldn’t fault a single one of them (Not that I’d want to anyway), they are the most loveliest people, they are funny and just there, whenever I need help. We’re a real team. As I said the other day, it sets the bar high. I’ve never had it where everyone is so nice, there’s always someone but it’s not like that this time (unless their all really good actors🤣). At the beginning of November, we got some really bad news, and as bad as it is, their all still amazing. I actually look forward to going to work – that’s what it’s supposed to be like. Usually I’d dread going, not for the type of work but for some of the people I’d have to work with, as I said before, there’s always one… (Everyone probably knows what I’m talking about, they have probably experienced it too).

December is almost here, it’s been a pretty weird, messy year. But I’ve had some of the best people to get me through it and met some of the most incredible people that make my day everyday. (Touch wood). December is going to be a good month.

I haven’t wrote anything since July but got inspiration to finally write something so here it is. An update on life, things I’ve been keeping quiet about. But I should be back soon with a new post. I’ve got the ideas, just need to put them into words. So until then, hope everyone’s having the best time, keep smiling and be kindddd. Much love, Ally xo


Hey everyone, I have been planning on writing a new post to come back for a while but haven’t found anything really exciting to write about – That will motivate me (If that makes sense). However, last week, something very special happened. My brother graduated and this may not seem like a big deal to anyone but it is to me, my family and my friends that have watched him grow up.

My brother has Autism.

For those that don’t know, Autism is defined as “a lifelong disability which affects how people communicate and interact with the world.” This definition comes from the National Autistic Society.

Autism can be a challenge sometimes but I honestly don’t know how I would have turned out without it in my life. Most people write off others with Autism, their “spastics” and “retards” (Just many of the reasons I hate these words.

My brother has been written off all his life. We were told he would never talk or be able to ride a bike, never be able to go to a mainstream school, let alone graduate from college.

Last week that happened. He graduated. And I’m so so proud of him. He passed barriers that were put in his way, he overcame things that people said he’d never be able to do.

I’m not going to lie, this is down to a lot of the help that he has got from family and friends, teachers and really cool professionals. – Part of the reason I love working with kids is so that I can help make a difference like people have helped to make a difference to my brother.

I am so proud of you buddy. I love you so much. You’ve shown everyone that with handwork anything is possible.

So, keeping it short and simple, that’s it for this post. I’m too proud not to write anything.

So for now – Have a good weekend and keep smiling. Much love – Ally xx

This is weird but I don’t think I’ll ever escape…

I SHOULD just ignore you…

I SHOULD just be getting on with writing this essay that’s due soon…

I SHOULD just be going about my day as if nothing has happened…

BUT why can’t you leave me alone? We left school 2 years ago, that’s enough time for incidents to be forgotten, for people to be forgotten. For YOU to get on with your life. For ME to finally move on from everything that happened. But WHY won’t YOU let that that happen?

The “No Caller ID” calls? The anonymous comments on my blog? The fake Instagram pages sending me DM’s? The shouting out of car windows when you go past? The threats? The messages that I get from other people because you’ve messaged them asking where I live and what I’m doing with my life?


Why can’t you leave me alone?

Why can’t you just stop all these unnecessary, childish games?

I don’t find them funny. It doesn’t upset me, I just don’t understand???

Why can’t you just move on?

Do something interesting with your life that doesn’t involve prank calling me? Threats to beat me up? To ruin my life? To rape me? Do you not realise how disgusting that is?

Do you not realise that your words could have an affect on someone? I’m lucky me, I got people that support me when stuff like this happens, they show me that I don’t need to listen to you.

I just don’t understand. We left school 2 years ago but your still acting as if we’re in the playground?

Writing about this is weird and probably unnecessary but so is what they do to me, so why should I not write?

Writing is my escape but funnily enough I don’t feel like I can escape this.

I blocked the numbers, I blocked the fake accounts, I blocked the people that used to make me feel uncomfortable. I even changed my number (TWICE), but there seems no way to escape?

I know it’s more than one group of people. I just don’t understand. WHY can’t you leave me alone?

I know you’ll probably read this and laugh, cause why couldn’t I just ignore it? Why did I have to write this?

But why do you have to do what you do?

Writing is my escape, and I won’t apologise for posting this. I just think it’s time that people grow up and leave me alone. I don’t see why I should be quiet anymore.

Cheers – Ally x

A Little Update | I’ll be back soon…

Hey guys, it’s been 4 months and I still haven’t posted, sorry! I’ve been so busy. I’m working on it. I’ve been so busy with the course I’m doing and working, I can’t really say it’s going to get any better. Exams are coming up so I’m getting prepared for those. Just a little update though to say that I’m not dead and will try and write again soon.

A girl needs her mental health breaks, you know?

I’ve been writing down my ideas and planning as I go, I ain’t forgot about this blog and I promise I’ll be back soon! There’s a lot of content coming soon.

Anyways, until next time – I hope you are well and living your best life! And if you got exams coming up, I wish you the best of luck, you’ll smash it! Much love – Ally xx

Goodbye 2018, Hello 2019…

Hey guys, it’s been a while, I’m sorry, life’s just been so busy. Today is 4 years exactly since I started my blog and although I haven’t posted in ages (Sorry once again), I do want to start posting regularly again. So here’s a little recap of my year.

January and February – These were weird months, not a lot happened. I was working hard to complete the level 2 course that I was doing and spending a lot of time with people that I love.

March – I completed the Walk All Over Cancer challenge. I had to walk 10,000 steps a day for the whole 31 days of the month, it’s harder than it seems, especially when your working a desk job and are in college classes a majority of the time. It snowed in March, making it difficult to get out and about – It snows and the whole of England comes to a standstill. I raised £120.00 and £21.25 in gift aid.

April – I had to leave my work placement (for the college course I was doing) that I really enjoyed, it was so much fun and I enjoyed it so much, I was sad to leave. I also dyed my hair pink to raise more money for charity, I say I dyed it but I didn’t – I had help – Thank you Chloe + Charli.

May – This was the month that friendship groups grew closer, even though May was difficult, I soon realised who was really there for me and who wasn’t. I also realised that not everything always goes to plan (well duh) but, I realised that no matter how much preparation you can do for something, there is always something that can go wrong.

June – I graduated in June, it was a great month. This was the month that I realised I can do anything if I put my mind to it – Cheesy, but true. I also got my first ever trophy – Student of the Year – Whoop whoop!

July – I got a new job working in a cinema, I met some great people and learnt a lot.

August – This was the month of work, decisions and getting grades back. What a weird, wonderful and terrifying month. I DID get some of the grades I wanted, I DID get onto the course that I wanted to – I’m now working my way towards getting into University.

September – I went to my first ever baby shower! I turned 20! I had a birthday dinner (THERE WAS A UNICORN CAKE), it was great – I love ya’ll that turned up (You know who you are!) I had blue hair – Thank you Chloe + Charli! I got my head down and started the course I got accepted into. September was the month of leaving toxic environments behind – I don’t regret this one bit – I did, but not anymore.

October – This was the month of visiting old places, places that used to scare me, places where I have the best memories – I realise this sounds kind of odd given the last point, but visiting these places gave me so much inspiration to keep working hard.

November – I figured out what I really want to do – I know this may change but for the meantime, it’s the best decision I’ve ever made. I also cut a majority of my hair off in November, anyone that knows me really well will know how much my hair means to me, for me to cut a majority of it off took a lot, this might sound stupid but for me, it was a big thing. November was the month of volunteering and changing it up a bit, as always. It was a good month.

December – Where do I even begin with December? The month of making good choices. I’ve learnt a lot of new things this month and will continue to learn more. I’m progressing quite a bit from what and who I was in January. I sent my university application off as well – this was a big month for me.

So that’s my year wrapped up, I guess, I’m probably missing a lot, as usual, but I thought I should post one last blog post before the end of 2018. Thank you for everyone’s love and support (You know who you are). One of my new years’ resolutions is to defiantly start blogging more often – I miss writing. I’ve been writing posts all throughout the year, I just haven’t finished them or posted them. So stay tuned cause they’ll be posted soon.

May your 2019 be blessed with greatness. – Love Ally xx

Just a quick note to say… (Unicorn Fundraiser) x

Hey guys, so, unfortunately, I am having to post this to let everyone know that due to cancelled.jpgissues with street permits I have had to cancel my event and postpone it to a later date.

I have posted it everywhere else as well just to let people know that it is cancelled – But just in case this is the only thing you see, here it is on here too.

If you don’t know what I’m talking about the blog post below may explain that.

I will be planning to do this event another time. Hope everyone can understand.

Much love – Ally xx