Hey guys! So this week I’m going to be writing about exams and how last year I was bullied right through the exam period, it was not fun. I’m writing about this topic because it’s exam season and today I finished my 4th exam out of 5. Last year, if I could have read something along the same lines as this, I think it would’ve made my situation so much better. It’s difficult when you don’t know what to do and your super stressed at the same time too…
So last year, right before my English exam, I was walking down the school alley, I ended up getting stones thrown at me… I didn’t know what to do so I just carried on walking till I got to the exam hall. It stressed me out, I was so nervous already and that situation just added to the nervousness, it also upset me a lot as well. I couldn’t think before the exam because everything kind of just froze. I don’t know if that makes sense or not… Sometimes you have these moments when something has just happened or something is happening and time just freezes, it’s like your not really there but you can see and hear what is happening in the situation. I don’t know if that happens to anyone else…
Right before my art exam I ended up getting pushed off my bike, all my art stuff that I was carrying ended up on the floor. It upset me and I didn’t really want to go to the exam after that… But I did, of course I did, why am I going to miss my exams just because I’m frightened of a few people..? I’m not.
I didn’t know what to do, I’m always being told that if I have a problem to tell someone but then in my head I was thinking about it. I only had a few weeks of school left, there would be no point. Nothing would be done about the situation and even if it was, did it matter that much? It was just a few more weeks…
I told my friend and he said I should tell someone, so I told my dad. As you can imagine he wasn’t too pleased. I had a few weeks left of year 11 and I was still being bullied by the same people. It happened in the exam season as well, so that made it even worse than it already was.
I was so nervous already with exams, I got nervous walking down the school alley and down the hallways… I didn’t understand why they wouldn’t leave me alone, I didn’t do anything so I didn’t understand what I did to deserve it, I still don’t…
If you are in the same kind of situation, no matter what year you are in, whether you are taking exams or not, PLEASE DO tell someone, whether the person you tell is your best friend, parent or teacher, just tell someone. You will feel ten times better afterwards. You never know what could happen next, the person that you tell could really help your situation, they could tell someone who can do something about it or they might confront the people doing it and get it to stop.
I felt so much better after I told my dad, he sorted everything out for me and the problem was solved in a few days so although I still worried when walking down the school alley, I eventually figured out that they were going to leave me alone.
This post kind of links back to last weeks post, you don’t know what’s going to happen unless you tell someone what is going on. My dad always says to me that he can’t help me if I don’t tell him what is going on. “My crystal ball isn’t working this week so I’m afraid I don’t know what’s happening until you tell me.” That’s what he always says to me.
Just wanted to finish this post by saying good luck with the rest of the exams that everyone has left!
Thank you for all the support, as always, you guys are amazing! Also thank you for all the encouragement over these past two weeks, I’ve been getting little messages here and there saying good luck, so thank you so much, it really does mean a lot. Hope everyone has a great week! Much love – Alison xx