Hey guys! So this week I am going to be writing about my weird experience at prom and how it actually turned out to be okay. This is for the ones that didn’t really want to go to prom, for whatever reason, but went or are still going to go.
“Why are you writing about this? No one cares…”
Truth is, I didn’t want to go to prom. The prom was supposed to be at the start of July but by February everyone was already talking about it.
I didn’t want to go to prom because I don’t like dresses, I don’t like dances and I didn’t like the thought of having to spend time with people who have bullied me.
I went dress shopping a few weeks before prom with a few friends and every dress I tried on I hated. Until I went one last time, I found a grey coloured dress that I absolutely loved. I took my dad shopping with me so that he could see the dress and then that was it, everything was sorted for prom.
A few days before prom I decided I really didn’t want to go, my insecurity got the better of me and I just didn’t want to go.
I was looking for every reason possible to not go, but it didn’t work and I ended up going to prom..
I got ready, finally got to the place where it was being held and walked in with my dad. First thing I did was look for my friends. People were staring and soon enough we got told to go inside. I was reassured that it was going to be fun and that I would enjoy it. I said goodbye to my dad and walked in with my friends.
There was an actual aisle where people could stare at everyone walking in…
*hides under a table*
Anyways, I went to go and sit with my friends. I’m not going to lie, I was looking around to see how everyone looked, not to judge them or anything, just to see what they were wearing. Everyone looked stunning! Absolutely everyone! Even if other people didn’t think so, I think we all scrub up well when we want to make the effort and everyone looked great!
I was having a great time, having a laugh, I felt ON TOP OF THE WORLD! Until.. My insecurities got better of me, I noticed one boy staring at me, the one who helped start it all, I felt so insecure…
I told my friends that I felt uncomfortable and wanted to go outside for fresh air, so instead of going on my own, they all came with me. They all knew exactly what was wrong and how I felt.
As someone who has had a lot of problems with this one person, I didn’t particularly want to be in the same room as him or be stared at by him.
As the night went on, I noticed him continuing to stare at me and smile, I felt so insecure it was unbelievable…
But of course, my night did get better because I surrounded myself with those who I felt comfortable with and enjoyed myself as much as I possibly could have.
I just wanted to take the time to write this post to say, no matter where you are or what you’re doing, if your feeling insecure or nervous, then surround yourself with people who you feel comfortable with. Thank you to those of you (You know who you are) that made sure I had a great time. I felt so much better for going and most likely would have regretted it if I didn’t go. Thank you to my dad for having the patience of a saint, I know 4 shopping trips that last 6 hours is really long!
Anyways, that’s it from me this week, I thought I’d take the time to reflect. If you are going to prom within the next week, then have fun! Make sure that you focus on yourself, no one else matters for this one night, just enjoy yourself!
In general, to anyone reading this, who cares what other people think? If you care about it, it’ll affect you and if you don’t then it won’t, simples..
Have a great week! As always thank you for reading and thank you for all the support. Much love – Alison xx