A year on from prom…

Hey guys! So this week I am going to be writing about my weird experience at prom and how it actually turned out to be okay. This is for the ones that didn’t really want to go to prom, for whatever reason, but went or are still going to go.

“Why are you writing about this? No one cares…”

I care.

Truth is, I didn’t want to go to prom. The prom was supposed to be at the start of July but by February everyone was already talking about it.14408_661493930650038_997360346509195395_n

I didn’t want to go to prom because I don’t like dresses, I don’t like dances and I didn’t like the thought of having to spend time with people who have bullied me.

I went dress shopping a few weeks before prom with a few friends and every dress I tried on I hated. Until I went one last time, I found a grey coloured dress that I absolutely loved. I took my dad shopping with me so that he could see the dress and then that was it, everything was sorted for prom.

A few days before prom I decided I really didn’t want to go, my insecurity got the better of me and I just didn’t want to go.

I was looking for every reason possible to not go, but it didn’t work and I ended up going to prom..

I got ready, finally got to the place where it was being held and walked in with my dad. First thing I did was look for my friends. People were staring and soon enough we got told to go inside. I was reassured that it was going to be fun and that I would enjoy it. I said goodbye to my dad and walked in with my friends.

There was an actual aisle where people could stare at everyone walking in… 

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Anyways, I went to go and sit with my friends. I’m not going to lie, I was looking around to see how everyone looked, not to judge them or anything, just to see what they were wearing. Everyone looked stunning! Absolutely everyone! Even if other people didn’t think so, I think we all scrub up well when we want to make the effort and everyone looked great!

I was having a great time, having a laugh, I felt ON TOP OF THE WORLD! Until.. My insecurities got better of me, I noticed one boy staring at me, the one who helped start it all, I felt so insecure…

I told my friends that I felt uncomfortable and wanted to go outside for fresh air, so instead of going on my own, they all came with me. They all knew exactly what was wrong and how I felt.

As someone who has had a lot of problems with this one person, I didn’t particularly want to be in the same room as him or be stared at by him.

As the night went on, I noticed him continuing  to stare at me and smile, I felt so insecure it was unbelievable…

But of course, my night did get better because I surrounded myself with those who I felt comfortable with and enjoyed myself as much as I possibly could have.

I just wanted to take the time to write this post to say, no matter where you are or what you’re doing, if your feeling insecure or nervous, then surround yourself with people who you feel comfortable with. Thank you to those of you (You know who you are) that made sure I had a great time. I felt so much better for going and most likely would have regretted it if I didn’t go. Thank you to my dad for having the patience of a saint, I know 4 shopping trips that last 6 hours is really long!

Anyways, that’s it from me this week, I thought I’d take the time to reflect. If you are going to prom within the next week, then have fun! Make sure that you focus on yourself, no one else matters for this one night, just enjoy yourself!

In general, to anyone reading this, who cares what other people think? If you care about it, it’ll affect you and if you don’t then it won’t, simples..

Have a great week! As always thank you for reading and thank you for all the support. Much love – Alison xx

Giving something back…

Hey guys! So this week I thought I’d talk about giving something back and doing one kind deed a day. I have an aim to do 5 nice things a day, just to help make other people smile. I think that if everyone did just one nice thing a day, the communities that people live in would most likely be a lot friendlier. If not then at least people would have a smile on their face.

Wednesday evening I was in the supermarket with my dad shopping. While at the till behind us was a women in a wheelchair struggling. I decided to help her put her shopping onto the till. I then helped her pack her shopping away and put it on the back of her wheelchair.

Any ways, my point is, if you help someone or compliment, even if it’s the smallest thing ever, chances are they will appreciate it and they will smile.

I don’t really understand how people think it’s okay to spread negativity anyway. It just makes no sense. What do they get out of it? How does it make any situa

tion better? To me, it doesn’t. It doesn’t make any sense to me what so ever. Your hurting people, how is that even the tiniest bit okay? I just don’t understand…

It costs nothing to be nice to people, even if it’s just the littlest thing that you do, it costs absolutely nothing. Hate is a horrible thing, if you are hating on someone then there is a chance that you are probably jealous of something they have, whether that’s their personality or something else…

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I’m hoping that this makes some people think, even if it just changes the way they think a little bit then I will be happy. Even if you just smile at a stranger (It usually makes them smile, even if they are having a bad day), or if you give up your seat for someone else on a bus or train. Even if it is just opening up a door for someone…

It might seem like the smallest thing ever, but if they are paying attention then chances are that they might be a tiny bit grateful.

It’s not about making other people smile, it could be anyone, even if your kind to just one person then I’m sure that one person will appreciate it.

Right so that’s it this week, quite a short post… I was going to post this yesterday but didn’t get around to it. New post next Thursday! Have hope and keep smiling. Aim to make one person smile a day, even if it is just a family member. Much love – Alison xx

“This too shall pass.” – Prince Ea

Hey guys! So this week I decided I’d give a few people some hope if they need it. It makes people think about what’s going on. I got this quote from Prince Ea, I’ll leave his link at the end of this blog post for anyone who doesn’t know who he is and anyone who is interested in finding out who he is. I was watching a YouTube video that he made which inspired me to write this post.

There was one main quote that stuck out to me through watching this video, “This too shall pass”.

Hearing this quote made me think about what a friend has been saying to me recently. “You’ve always got to have hope.”

Honesty hour…

I was thinking about ways I could write this post and I just decided to be as honest as I possibly can be. I started thinking about the childhood I had. When I was just about to go to secondary school, I thought it would be like High School Musical. Minus the singing and dancing. When speaking to a few young children this week I found that this was the easiest way to explain it, everyone knows what High School Musical is.

Any ways, whenever I was upset cause I had a bad day, I would go home and sing at the top of my lungs while watching it. “Should you really admit to that, Alison?” …Well Probably not, but I don’t really care what anyone thinks. Whether people want to admit it or not, in year 9 most people I knew still watched high school musical, some still do.

My point is, if you’re having a bad day, go out or go home and do something you love, watch a movie, read a book, belt out high school musical at the top of your lungs, whatever it is you’re going to do, have fun and cheer up!

Nothing lasts forever, so don’t stay feeling down because of what is going on, it will go away eventually. Whatever you are going through, whatever your current situation is, it will change and it will get better. In the end it can only get better. Nothing lasts forever. I used to think that I was always going to be bullied, and yes because I got bullied for a long time it did seem that way. Things have got better and the bullying has stopped. I know I shouldn’t but I do expect it to happen again, someone will get bored with their own life and pick on mine. But that’s just life. Eventually, I’ll leave school and it won’t happen anymore, it will get even better and I’ll be left alone. It’s just one of the many things that will pass.

Remember: Whatever it is your going through, it won’t last, stay positive, have hope and stay strong because it will get better.

Link to Prince Ea’s Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCDgUAAHgsV2fFZQm2fIWBnA      There are some great videos on there that really opened up my eyes. Go check him out, he’s so inspirational!

Okay, so that’s it for this week. It’s only a sort post but hopefully there will be longer ones, I’m hoping to open up to the internet a little bit more. I didn’t post last week because I got so excited over my dad buying me a new phone that by the time I got home I didn’t have time to post. Next weeks post is going to be longer. I’ve got a few ideas at the moment that has given me the chance to write a few new posts. Good luck with everyone who is still doing their exams, I had my last one last week. Just think, work hard and after your last exam you can R E L A X. That brilliant feeling that I forgot all about. Anyway’s good luck, stay positive and have hope! Thanks for reading. Much love – Alison xx

Why I try to raise awareness of bullying so much…

Hey guys! I just wanted to start by saying thank you for all the support I got from last weeks post. This blog post I’m going to be answering one of the big questions I have been asked quite recently. Why do I try to raise awareness of bullying so much…

“Isn’t it a waste of time?”

“What do you get out of running a blog about bullying?”

Here goes…

I know what it’s like to be bullied, trust me I do and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, not even someone who has hurt me before. I know how much it hurt me to be bullied and I wouldn’t want anyone to feel like I did, wishing that on someone else, to me, is considered one of the cruellest things ever. However, actually bullying someone is cruel. But I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

As I’ve said before, when I was getting bullied really badly I would always look to the internet and there was hardly anything on the internet about how to get help. I spoke to quite a few people on Twitter about it, but they were the only one’s that really gave me any advice. There wasn’t a web page or a blog about bullying. So I thought that if I could create this blog and just help at least one person with what they are going through then it is well worth it.

Writing on this blog helps me quite a lot too, it means that once I write about it I can give advice to myself if I were to go through it again, or at least I can help someone else that is maybe going through it.

It’s not a waste of my time because if I help just one person then I know that I have at least succeeded with it. However, I’ve been told by quite a few people who I have already helped them with what I have written. Knowing this makes me so happy, I’m sharing what negatively happened to me, to positively help someone else. That makes it all better, knowing that I’m helping people.

Last week I saw a big group of boys that used to bully me, I got asked why I don’t hate them because “You should hate them, they caused you so much pain”. I shall forever thank the people who bullied me because even though they caused me loads of pain, more than I can ever explain, I will never hate them. They helped make me into who I am today. They helped make me stronger. So really I don’t hate them, I don’t exactly like them but I defiantly don’t hate them, they helped me realise that not everyone is going to be nice from quite a young age. So even though they hurt me, they helped me quite a bit. I can now stick up for myself because of them.

Okay, so that’s it for this week. If you guys could send me some more questions at myinsanewxnderland@gmail.com then that would really help with what I’m currently working on, or if you don’t want to email you can comment, either way it will help me! Thank you so much for all the support! New blog post next week! Much love – Alison xx