So as I am writing this I am thinking about the one big chapter in my life; Secondary School. I have finally finished!!! I finished my last exam today and I am so happy! I’ve got 3 months of summer holiday where I don’t have to worry or stress out! But I wanted to write about this because although I am using my blog as a tracker so I can look back and see the past and see what I have achieved, it is also to help people, so if anyone sees anything they have gone through or are still going through on my blog, it may help.
Secondary school has been tough, I’m not going to lie, it has been so difficult for me. From start to finish. I started with hardly any friends, as does everyone, but them 5 people I started with, I only talk to 2 out of the 5 of them now. That’s the funny thing about secondary school, you don’t walk in with the same friends you walk out with, it all changes, and now that I have finished I have finally realised that. After years of people telling me that I won’t be friends with the same people as I started with, I finally have believed it. But it doesn’t matter now, because I have got the best set of friends anyone can ask for and it doesn’t matter that we’re not a huge group, the more friends someone has the more problems that may bring them.
There have been times when I have wanted to move school, I actually got a offer to move school, to move away from the bullying before my little brother started the same school when the bullying got really bad but I couldn’t. I find it really difficult to make new friends and I had only just found a solid group of friends that I knew would still be there for me in the end. So I didn’t leave, there have been times when I have wanted to move schools but I see that as running away from the problem when really I wanted to run into the problem and stop it. Even though I still got problems at the end of Year 11, I feel as if I can go off this summer, not worry about anything and come back a stronger person.
The other day I was talking to a friend about it and he said “You let them knock you down. In fact, your still down. You need to get back up and come back fighting. That way you’ll be a stronger and confident person”, that’s what keeps me going, things like that, when a friend says that to me or something similar I know I can do it. If they believe I can do it then I can definitely do it!
I walked out of the school gates today and I felt free. There was a massive weight off my shoulders. I was thinking about it on the way home, over them 5 years, all the things I have been called, it has made me a stronger person because although what people say effects me, I know I’m not what they say.
Secondary School has changed me, when I walked through them gates 5 years ago I was shy and quiet and wouldn’t speak a lot, now I’m really loud, a lot more confident and a better person. I think I am anyway, I’m using my experience’s to try and help others, I think that has made me a better person.
Phew! It’s over and done with. Now I just have to wait until results day in August, fingers crossed I’ve done well. Thank you for all the support from everyone over the past few months, I know I say it a lot but it really does mean a lot to me, and thank you to the ones that have helped me over the past 5 years, you know who you are, I’m very grateful for it.
There will be more posts up starting next week along with a surprise –ahhhhh!!!– I’m really excited to see what I write within the summer. Hope everyone has a nice day! Much love –Alison xx