Hey everyone, I have been planning on writing a new post to come back for a while but haven’t found anything really exciting to write about – That will motivate me (If that makes sense). However, last week, something very special happened. My brother graduated and this may not seem like a big deal to anyone but it is to me, my family and my friends that have watched him grow up.

My brother has Autism.

For those that don’t know, Autism is defined as “a lifelong disability which affects how people communicate and interact with the world.” This definition comes from the National Autistic Society.

Autism can be a challenge sometimes but I honestly don’t know how I would have turned out without it in my life. Most people write off others with Autism, their “spastics” and “retards” (Just many of the reasons I hate these words.

My brother has been written off all his life. We were told he would never talk or be able to ride a bike, never be able to go to a mainstream school, let alone graduate from college.

Last week that happened. He graduated. And I’m so so proud of him. He passed barriers that were put in his way, he overcame things that people said he’d never be able to do.

I’m not going to lie, this is down to a lot of the help that he has got from family and friends, teachers and really cool professionals. – Part of the reason I love working with kids is so that I can help make a difference like people have helped to make a difference to my brother.

I am so proud of you buddy. I love you so much. You’ve shown everyone that with handwork anything is possible.

So, keeping it short and simple, that’s it for this post. I’m too proud not to write anything.

So for now – Have a good weekend and keep smiling. Much love – Ally xx


This is weird but I don’t think I’ll ever escape…

I SHOULD just ignore you…

I SHOULD just be getting on with writing this essay that’s due soon…

I SHOULD just be going about my day as if nothing has happened…

BUT why can’t you leave me alone? We left school 2 years ago, that’s enough time for incidents to be forgotten, for people to be forgotten. For YOU to get on with your life. For ME to finally move on from everything that happened. But WHY won’t YOU let that that happen?

The “No Caller ID” calls? The anonymous comments on my blog? The fake Instagram pages sending me DM’s? The shouting out of car windows when you go past? The threats? The messages that I get from other people because you’ve messaged them asking where I live and what I’m doing with my life?


Why can’t you leave me alone?

Why can’t you just stop all these unnecessary, childish games?

I don’t find them funny. It doesn’t upset me, I just don’t understand???

Why can’t you just move on?

Do something interesting with your life that doesn’t involve prank calling me? Threats to beat me up? To ruin my life? To rape me? Do you not realise how disgusting that is?

Do you not realise that your words could have an affect on someone? I’m lucky me, I got people that support me when stuff like this happens, they show me that I don’t need to listen to you.

I just don’t understand. We left school 2 years ago but your still acting as if we’re in the playground?

Writing about this is weird and probably unnecessary but so is what they do to me, so why should I not write?

Writing is my escape but funnily enough I don’t feel like I can escape this.

I blocked the numbers, I blocked the fake accounts, I blocked the people that used to make me feel uncomfortable. I even changed my number (TWICE), but there seems no way to escape?

I know it’s more than one group of people. I just don’t understand. WHY can’t you leave me alone?

I know you’ll probably read this and laugh, cause why couldn’t I just ignore it? Why did I have to write this?

But why do you have to do what you do?

Writing is my escape, and I won’t apologise for posting this. I just think it’s time that people grow up and leave me alone. I don’t see why I should be quiet anymore.

Cheers – Ally x

A Little Update | I’ll be back soon…

Hey guys, it’s been 4 months and I still haven’t posted, sorry! I’ve been so busy. I’m working on it. I’ve been so busy with the course I’m doing and working, I can’t really say it’s going to get any better. Exams are coming up so I’m getting prepared for those. Just a little update though to say that I’m not dead and will try and write again soon.

A girl needs her mental health breaks, you know?

I’ve been writing down my ideas and planning as I go, I ain’t forgot about this blog and I promise I’ll be back soon! There’s a lot of content coming soon.

Anyways, until next time – I hope you are well and living your best life! And if you got exams coming up, I wish you the best of luck, you’ll smash it! Much love – Ally xx

Goodbye 2018, Hello 2019…

Hey guys, it’s been a while, I’m sorry, life’s just been so busy. Today is 4 years exactly since I started my blog and although I haven’t posted in ages (Sorry once again), I do want to start posting regularly again. So here’s a little recap of my year.

January and February – These were weird months, not a lot happened. I was working hard to complete the level 2 course that I was doing and spending a lot of time with people that I love.

March – I completed the Walk All Over Cancer challenge. I had to walk 10,000 steps a day for the whole 31 days of the month, it’s harder than it seems, especially when your working a desk job and are in college classes a majority of the time. It snowed in March, making it difficult to get out and about – It snows and the whole of England comes to a standstill. I raised £120.00 and £21.25 in gift aid.

April – I had to leave my work placement (for the college course I was doing) that I really enjoyed, it was so much fun and I enjoyed it so much, I was sad to leave. I also dyed my hair pink to raise more money for charity, I say I dyed it but I didn’t – I had help – Thank you Chloe + Charli.

May – This was the month that friendship groups grew closer, even though May was difficult, I soon realised who was really there for me and who wasn’t. I also realised that not everything always goes to plan (well duh) but, I realised that no matter how much preparation you can do for something, there is always something that can go wrong.

June – I graduated in June, it was a great month. This was the month that I realised I can do anything if I put my mind to it – Cheesy, but true. I also got my first ever trophy – Student of the Year – Whoop whoop!

July – I got a new job working in a cinema, I met some great people and learnt a lot.

August – This was the month of work, decisions and getting grades back. What a weird, wonderful and terrifying month. I DID get some of the grades I wanted, I DID get onto the course that I wanted to – I’m now working my way towards getting into University.

September – I went to my first ever baby shower! I turned 20! I had a birthday dinner (THERE WAS A UNICORN CAKE), it was great – I love ya’ll that turned up (You know who you are!) I had blue hair – Thank you Chloe + Charli! I got my head down and started the course I got accepted into. September was the month of leaving toxic environments behind – I don’t regret this one bit – I did, but not anymore.

October – This was the month of visiting old places, places that used to scare me, places where I have the best memories – I realise this sounds kind of odd given the last point, but visiting these places gave me so much inspiration to keep working hard.

November – I figured out what I really want to do – I know this may change but for the meantime, it’s the best decision I’ve ever made. I also cut a majority of my hair off in November, anyone that knows me really well will know how much my hair means to me, for me to cut a majority of it off took a lot, this might sound stupid but for me, it was a big thing. November was the month of volunteering and changing it up a bit, as always. It was a good month.

December – Where do I even begin with December? The month of making good choices. I’ve learnt a lot of new things this month and will continue to learn more. I’m progressing quite a bit from what and who I was in January. I sent my university application off as well – this was a big month for me.

So that’s my year wrapped up, I guess, I’m probably missing a lot, as usual, but I thought I should post one last blog post before the end of 2018. Thank you for everyone’s love and support (You know who you are). One of my new years’ resolutions is to defiantly start blogging more often – I miss writing. I’ve been writing posts all throughout the year, I just haven’t finished them or posted them. So stay tuned cause they’ll be posted soon.

May your 2019 be blessed with greatness. – Love Ally xx

Just a quick note to say… (Unicorn Fundraiser) x

Hey guys, so, unfortunately, I am having to post this to let everyone know that due to cancelled.jpgissues with street permits I have had to cancel my event and postpone it to a later date.

I have posted it everywhere else as well just to let people know that it is cancelled – But just in case this is the only thing you see, here it is on here too.

If you don’t know what I’m talking about the blog post below may explain that.

I will be planning to do this event another time. Hope everyone can understand.

Much love – Ally xx

I’m dressing up as a UNICORN and fundraising for CANCER RESEARCH UK!

Hey guys, I know it’s been a while since I last posted anything. I’m sorry about that, lifeunicorn has been hectic, exams are coming up, etc. I’ve written things, I just haven’t had time to finish and post them. I’m working on a few things at the moment which will come very soon – So stay tuned for that!

But for now, I’m here to promote what I’m getting up to this weekend!

When: Saturday 26th & Sunday 27th May 2018


Where: Outside the Cancer Research shop (75 Broad Street, Reading, RG1 2AF)


Why? In March I did a ‘10K steps a day’ challenge, I succeeded in doing all 31 days of March. If I hadn’t of succeeded I would have had to do this as a forfeit, but I’m doing it anyway. So, I’m dressing up as a unicorn and fundraising outside the Cancer Research UK charity shop!

Turns out there is a method to my madness. I’m really excited for this! Everything is falling into place. If you would like to donate but can’t make it, my just giving page that I used in March is still open. Okay, so that’s it until next time. I hope to see you there! All donations are welcome! – Ally xx

To all the boys that have ever asked me out on April Fools Day (I hope you achieved what you wanted to)

Hey guys, apologies for not posting for a while, everything has been so busy! Note to self: It’s really difficult to get a challenge done and dusted, complete coursework and attempt to write blog posts for a certain time and day. But my challenge is now over! I didn’t feel like this needed a separate blog post as I have already written about it enough and spammed all my social media for the whole of March (I would say sorry – but I’m not really sorry).

In March I had to do 10,000 steps a day, so for 31 days that would have been 310,000 steps, but I did 364,559 steps – considering people said they didn’t think I’d be able to do it and the fact that I did makes me extremely proud of myself. I had a goal to raise £100 and I raised £110 and £18.75 in Gift Aid. So thank you to everyone that donated, to everyone that supported me and told me I could do it. Thank you to everyone that went on walks with me to get the steps in (Mainly my dad and my brother, but the girls from college too (Your great)). I did it!!!

Okay, so here’s the real reason I’m writing a post today. Today is April Fools Day, possibly the worst day of the year (I hate it, I really do). But the other day, I wrote a (Sort of) poem and so I’m sharing it on here, because why not.

So here goes…

To all the boys that have ever asked me out on April Fools Day (I hope you achieved what you wanted to)

I don’t hate you, some might think I do,

But I pity you, I feel so sorry for you,

You had to make me look like a fool to make people like you,

You had to make a joke out of me, in front of everyone, to get people to like you,

I hated it, I hated you,

And for every April Fools Day after that, I no longer went to school,

I was “sick” every single year, no one caught on that the day was the reason why.

“Alison, I really like you, will you go out with me?”

I was always a little slow with catching on.

I was the joke.

April Fools Day is always the day for when jokes come out the most,

For when pranks were pulled.

I didn’t appreciate being your joke.

But as I said before and I’ll say it again,

I don’t hate you, people think I might do,

But you taught me something that I needed to learn.

Not everyone is going to be kind, not everyone is going to stick up for you.

You did have an impact though,

I’m now weary, probably more than I should be,

Compliments are hard to accept, as they might be a joke, right?

My phone ends up being turned off every April Fools Day,

If not turned off, only certain people get their messages opened.

It really shouldn’t be like that.

I lost a lot of friends because of this horrible day of the year,

They learnt that when they hang round with me, they get asked out too,

And why would anyone want to hang around with the girl who gets jokes turned onto you too? They wouldn’t, is the answer.

So this is for all the girls that have ever been asked out as a joke,

This is for all the girls whose hearts have broken, realising that they are the joke,

This is for all the girls that have been impacted by cruel boys who just want to be cool.

It happens more than people think.

It happened to me 3 times in a day once, in person,

It then happened when I got home over social media,

I didn’t go in for a few days after that, I just needed to escape,

It happens more than people think,

It happens in lessons, you can hear the whispers before you get asked and the giggles after,

And all you can do, once you realise it’s a joke is turn back around,

Just to get asked again.

It’s not a joke, I’m not a joke, and what you did wasn’t nice.

It was torture, an hour lesson of being poked in the back,

Just so you could get your answer?

Shy me told you to leave me alone, to just shut up,

Shy me said yes once, all because I was told by a “friend” that it wasn’t a joke,

Shy me had to sit and hide from those that I knew would ask,

Hours sat hiding away in the toilets,

Hours sat hiding away behind the book shelves in the library.

The person I am now?

The person I am now would tell you to pack it in,

To leave me and any other girl that you have asked alone.

The person I am now, would call you out,

Would tell you that you’re a joke,

Would tell you that you didn’t need to make me or any other girl the joke to be “cool”.


Did you achieve what you needed to? Probably not.

Are you cool now? Not in my eyes.

Did you make a big enough fool of yourself for everyone to remember for years to come? Yeah.


People say that over time, people do change and mature,

I really do hope that is the case and maybe one day, when you have a daughter,

You will understand how much hurt you caused,

I would not wish it on anyone, but it may happen,

Then when she comes home crying, telling you what happened,

Maybe, just maybe, you will start to understand the hurt you really inflicted upon others,

I wonder, will it still be a joke then?


Happy April Fools Day to all the boys that have ever asked girls out as a joke.

The real fool is you.

People change over time, they look different, they become different people,

In years to come you will realise that you missed your opportunity,

People remember things, I sure will and so will a lot of girls.

So next time you want to make a joke out of someone, think before you speak.

Making a joke out of someone does not make you cool,

Happy April Fools Day you fool.

Okay, so that’s it. I feel like I needed to write about this. It’s not really spoken about and I think it should be. I know full well that I am not the only girl who this has happened to. It is downright cruel. I’m pretty sure it still happens too. But it shouldn’t. No girl should have to think bad about themselves just because some jerk decided he wants to be cool. It shouldn’t happen and to some people, it really isn’t a joke. It can open up old wounds and start off a load of thoughts about themselves. It causes self-esteem problems. Often when people do speak about it, they get the casual answer of “it’s just a bit of banter”.

To those that read this and think that I didn’t need to write about this, I did and chances are, the reason you think that is probably because you may have done this to someone else. Most of the time, when I get comments or messages saying I didn’t need to write about something, it’s usually because they have done it in the past.

So that’s it for this week – Until next time. Keep smiling, stay strong and don’t be scared to speak up about things like this, it needs to be heard! Much love – Ally xx

10 things I have learnt in the short time of leaving sixth form…

Hey guys, so currently it has been 9 months since I left sixth form! (I’m not counting it, I came up with this idea and had to count it – for those that question what I’m doing with my life). But anyways – This idea was inspired the other day when I was thinking about how much everything has changed in a year.

This time last year I was revising like mad for my A-Level exams, completing coursework for the deadlines, applying to universities and colleges. I was putting in so much work that my dad was worried about me and so were my friends, I had just recovered (Kind of) from being seriously ill and was already stressing myself out – I was obsessed with doing the best for myself (I’m not saying its a bad thing but at the time it was).

I’ve gone from being quiet and shy (Kind of – depends who I was around) in sixth form, to be able to shout halfway across a campus or laugh out loud without caring who’s around and that means a lot of me. I’m not going to lie, I wasn’t like that from day one.

I can describe day one (of college) to anyone that wants to hear about it, I was really nervous and shy and didn’t really speak to anyone – I’m not going to lie, I didn’t know how to. So on my first day, I kept my head down, texted my best friend like CRAZY and at lunch, I disappeared and sat by a tree reading a book because I hadn’t been able to speak to anyone. For anyone that thinks that is “sad” – The book was great, thanks for asking! Day one wasn’t too bad either.

Since day one, I have met some amazing people, I’m a lot more confident than I was and I’m constantly being told about how different I am now compared to how shy I was. I met some loud people, but the reason I met these loud people was cause I shared a free period with someone in my class and we got talking. If your reading this, your great (!!!) and I appreciate you more than you probably think.

I would like to think that now (I’m told this a lot now too), I’m more confident than I was and that I’ve got a carefree attitude. There have been some times where something has happened and I just haven’t cared enough to let it bother me – This time last year it would have been a different story.

Quick edit – Shout out to the guy that made it his mission on day one to introduce me to as many people as possible – Your great! So glad I have had the privilege to know you so long B!! Also, shout out to one of my favourite people for showing me around when I got lost (Which was a lot), your great too L! xx

So here’s why I’m actually writing this…

Here are my 10 things I have learnt in the short time of leaving sixth form:

  1. I am not going to get bullied everywhere I go – Going somewhere new where people don’t know me has proved this. I haven’t had anything happen to me since September and I am extremely happy about this!
  2. You won’t stay in contact with everyone that you used to be friends with, people leave and once they don’t see you daily anymore they tend to lose interest – I’ve found that a lot.
  3. Not everyone is going to let you down.
  4. Not everyone is going to have a problem with you being who you are – being somewhere new has taught me this.
  5. A clean slate is possibly the best way to change who you are and who you want to be.
  6. Not everyone is going to judge you for what you look like or even what you love to do.
  7. Going somewhere where the resources are great and the lecturers really care has caused me to do a lot better than I ever have.
  8. Going somewhere where the environment is fantastic has made it so easy to be who I am and not care about who says what.
  9. Being allowed to be yourself is not a crime.
  10.  Things do get better – Trust me, I know! As of now, I am living proof of this.

Okay, so that’s it, posting on a Friday instead of a Thursday because why not. Hope everyone is well and doing great! Yesterday I reached my halfway point of my donations for the Cancer Research walking that I am doing on the daily – Just wanted to say a quick thank you to everyone that has donated so far! Means a lot. Much love – Ally xx

**ANNOUNCEMENT** Do your worst! (This is going to be regretable)

Hey guys, so this week I wanted to write about a suggestion that I got. It’s not really a1200px-Cancer_Research_UK.svg suggestion anymore, I’ve decided I’ll do it. This doesn’t really make sense, let me explain. So if you don’t already know, for March I signed myself up to do 10K steps a day for Cancer Research. So far I have done over 10K steps a day (It’s a week today that I started and so far I have managed it). So far I have had £15.00 in donations too, which I’m really pleased about, it’s only been a week and I’m 15% into my goal already (I didn’t think I would be).

Why am I writing this? What is the title about? What’s the big announcement I’m talking about?

On Saturday morning, I asked my mate if he would sponsor me for the 10K challenge, I told him so far I have done every day since starting, that I had proof on all my social media’s and that obviously, it was for a good cause. He said that he would sponsor me at the end of the month if I did every single day – Which is fair enough.

He also gave me an idea and as much as I wish that I had come up with the great idea myself, I didn’t, so he gets the credit for that. You know who you are, I would mention your name but I don’t know if you’d want me to or not.

So here’s what he suggested, he said that if I miss a day that I should do a forfeit.

However, I said that I read somewhere that if on one day I do 15K steps and then the next day I only do 5K steps, that it adds up and still counts.

He said that’s more like cheating, a way out, and the more I thought about it, the more I figured he was right.

So I asked him what the forfeit would be… He came up with dying my hair pink. And I


Credit to the owner of this picture.

came up with a few more ideas.


So here’s what I’m going to do, in a few days (I hope) after posting this, I am going to upload a poll somewhere (I don’t know where yet) and let people vote on what my forfeit should be. BUT HERE’S THE CATCH! You can only vote if you donate on my fundraising page, I mean you can vote if you don’t donate, your vote just won’t be counted.

Even if you donate 10p, your vote will count.

I’m open to suggestions on what my forfeit should be. Here are a few ideas that some mates and I have come up with so far:

  1. Dye my hair pink
  2. Walk around college/town in my bright pink unicorn onesie all day (Don’t judge me, it was a Christmas present and it is amazing!!)
  3. Wear odd shoes
  4. Don’t speak for a whole 24 hours
  5. Eat sushi (I’ve never had it before)
  6. Start a YouTube channel

(A lot of these ideas aren’t mine, I only had the unicorn onesie idea – Credit to those that have given me forfeits.)

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So here’s what you’ve got to do if you want to vote on my forfeit, either donate and add your name with the forfeit you would want me to do, or you could donate, show me proof that you have (If you don’t want to add your name) and get your vote that way. (You can only vote for one thing, I really am open to suggestions. The more suggestions I have, the more I’ll add to the poll – Obviously, it will be depending on if they are reasonable).

The link to my fundraising page:

It’s all for a good cause – That’s what I keep telling myself.

Okay, so that’s it. That’s what the big announcement is about. I think it’s quite big, I’m terrified of the outcome of this forfeit. Depending on the forfeit depends when I will carry it out (For example: If the unicorn forfeit is picked then I will have to wait until after half term to do this, obviously – OR when re-reading this to check for mistakes I had an idea, I could walk around town all day in a unicorn onesie, whatever you guys vote). I will be doing the forfeit at the end of March – unless I am unable to. I’m just going to wrap this up here, thank you so much for everyone’s support. It means a lot, keep smiling and don’t forget to donate if you want to get the chance to decide what you want me to do… I’m a little nervous for this, ha-ha… Much love – Ally xx

In March I’m going to WALK ALL OVER CANCER!

Hey guys! So this week I am very happy and proud to announce that starting from 1st March 2018, for the whole month that I am going to be doing a sponsored walk for Cancer Research. I am going to walk 10,000 steps a day, every day for a month. This is my first ever sponsored anything!

So here I am to talk about it (Of course I am, who do you take me for)…

Sadly, Cancer affects so many people, all over the world. I was going to add statistics but I didn’t actually realise how many people are affected by this dreadful disease. I mean, I did, but I didn’t, not really. Millions of people are affected.

It’s a horrible disease that causes heartache in families.

When I saw the advert for this sponsored walk, I signed myself up straight away and honestly, I’m really excited to do it. I know I can do it.

My goal, as I’m writing this (22/02/18) is to raise £100, I didn’t want to aim too high or too low so I’m sticking with £100. If I raise my goal then I will change it (I’ll keep you all updated, of course, I will).

When setting up my fundraising page it asked me 3 things:

My Motivation: I want to do something to help so I’m doing this! Let’s beat Cancer together!

My Story: Hi there, I don’t really have a story so here’s a little bit about me. My names Alison but everyone calls me Ally (Ally is better), I’m 19 years old and studying childcare at college. I own a blog (Which might be where you got this link from) where I write about bullying and different topics that are on my mind. I have a great support group of friends and family that are really happy and supportive of me doing this. I have known a few people who have had the terrible disease (also known as cancer), some have bravely fought it but sadly passed away and some have fought it off (Which is amazing!). I wish I could do more to help but until then this will have to do. In March I’m going to be walking all over cancer!

My Target: £100

The whole sponsored walk for a month is really clever because even though the goal is to walk 10,000 steps a day, if I don’t manage it on one day because of work or college or something, then I can catch up the next day or whenever. As long as I catch up by the end of March.

So here’s what I’m going to do, 10,000 steps a day or at least 310,000 steps within March. Wondering how I’m going to track my steps? I’m going to use my Fitbit watch which I was bought for my birthday! I’m very excited about all of this.

If anyone would like to donate towards what I am doing, I would really appreciate it. Even if it’s 10p! It’s 10p towards my goal!

The link to my fundraising page is here:

Okay, so that’s it. If you do donate anything towards what I am doing – Thank you very much! I really appreciate it! Until next time… Much love – Ally xx