Hey guys, so currently it has been 9 months since I left sixth form! (I’m not counting it, I came up with this idea and had to count it – for those that question what I’m doing with my life). But anyways – This idea was inspired the other day when I was thinking about how much everything has changed in a year.
This time last year I was revising like mad for my A-Level exams, completing coursework for the deadlines, applying to universities and colleges. I was putting in so much work that my dad was worried about me and so were my friends, I had just recovered (Kind of) from being seriously ill and was already stressing myself out – I was obsessed with doing the best for myself (I’m not saying its a bad thing but at the time it was).
I’ve gone from being quiet and shy (Kind of – depends who I was around) in sixth form, to be able to shout halfway across a campus or laugh out loud without caring who’s around and that means a lot of me. I’m not going to lie, I wasn’t like that from day one.
I can describe day one (of college) to anyone that wants to hear about it, I was really nervous and shy and didn’t really speak to anyone – I’m not going to lie, I didn’t know how to. So on my first day, I kept my head down, texted my best friend like CRAZY and at lunch, I disappeared and sat by a tree reading a book because I hadn’t been able to speak to anyone. For anyone that thinks that is “sad” – The book was great, thanks for asking! Day one wasn’t too bad either.
Since day one, I have met some amazing people, I’m a lot more confident than I was and I’m constantly being told about how different I am now compared to how shy I was. I met some loud people, but the reason I met these loud people was cause I shared a free period with someone in my class and we got talking. If your reading this, your great (!!!) and I appreciate you more than you probably think.
I would like to think that now (I’m told this a lot now too), I’m more confident than I was and that I’ve got a carefree attitude. There have been some times where something has happened and I just haven’t cared enough to let it bother me – This time last year it would have been a different story.
Quick edit – Shout out to the guy that made it his mission on day one to introduce me to as many people as possible – Your great! So glad I have had the privilege to know you so long B!! Also, shout out to one of my favourite people for showing me around when I got lost (Which was a lot), your great too L! xx
So here’s why I’m actually writing this…
Here are my 10 things I have learnt in the short time of leaving sixth form:
- I am not going to get bullied everywhere I go – Going somewhere new where people don’t know me has proved this. I haven’t had anything happen to me since September and I am extremely happy about this!
- You won’t stay in contact with everyone that you used to be friends with, people leave and once they don’t see you daily anymore they tend to lose interest – I’ve found that a lot.
- Not everyone is going to let you down.
- Not everyone is going to have a problem with you being who you are – being somewhere new has taught me this.
- A clean slate is possibly the best way to change who you are and who you want to be.
- Not everyone is going to judge you for what you look like or even what you love to do.
- Going somewhere where the resources are great and the lecturers really care has caused me to do a lot better than I ever have.
- Going somewhere where the environment is fantastic has made it so easy to be who I am and not care about who says what.
- Being allowed to be yourself is not a crime.
- Things do get better – Trust me, I know! As of now, I am living proof of this.
Okay, so that’s it, posting on a Friday instead of a Thursday because why not. Hope everyone is well and doing great! Yesterday I reached my halfway point of my donations for the Cancer Research walking that I am doing on the daily – Just wanted to say a quick thank you to everyone that has donated so far! Means a lot. Much love – Ally xx