Hey guys, so this week I’m going to be opening up to the internet a little bit more, I suppose. Before I start typing I just want to say thank you for all the support, as always, it means ever so much to me. I know I start every blog post like this, so I probably sound like a broken record but honestly, it does mean ever so much to me. It makes my day!
This week I am going to be talking about a fear that I have managed to overcome over the past few weeks. We’re in the middle of half term, I have already been at school for a full term, so for me to manage to get over a fear that quick is amazing. For me anyway. Considering I have had this fear since I can remember, this is quite truly one of the best things I have overcome, even if no one else thinks so.
Anyways… Dealing with nerves…
I used to get so nervous walking around school, so much that I would have to have someone with me at break or lunch time, or even just walking to lesson. It was that bad… Thinking about it, I find that kind of sad. I was so nervous to even walk anywhere on my own.
This didn’t just affect me at school, it also affected my life outside of school. I wouldn’t go out shopping on my own, even if it was for a loaf of bread. I would have to take my dad or brother with me. Just so I had someone there. Even if it was just shopping, to go and buy a t-shirt or something, I would have to take my brother or dad or a friend. I would never go out on my own, I was so nervous that I would see someone who would bully me.
I’m not nervous because its school, I was nervous with the walking about and seeing people who used to bully me part of school. I had fear that they could be horrible to me or just ruin my day. They could basically control me and where I went without knowing about it.
I got nervous before leaving the house to go to school, I just didn’t want to go, not because its school but because of what happened so often at school. It’s the same for leaving school, I would want to stay a bit later than usual just so I would know that they weren’t there but as soon as my brother started going to the same school as me I couldn’t do that anymore. I didn’t want them to be down the alley and say something as they have done before and still did even when my brother was with me.
I don’t really know why I had this fear, I knew it was going to happen anyway, there was no way for me to prevent it. I mean, I shouldn’t have to prevent it… but I guess that’s how it works.
Now, it doesn’t really bother me, I’m over it, if they say something they say something. I don’t ignore it, it’s not possible for me to ignore it, I don’t really know how to. But I have my ways of being able to not let it bother me anymore, one way is blogging. Not exactly about what happened in that situation but I will use how I’m feeling as inspiration to write a blog post. It just makes me feel better knowing that I’m not bottling it up, that I’m putting the negative energy that I’m receiving into positive energy. The support also helps a lot.
I know it sounds odd, but I guess without this blog and the support of friends and family I would still be who I was 6 years ago. I have changed a lot, I’m still the same person deep down, just a better version of myself.
My tips for dealing with nerves…
- Keep your head held high
- Take the negative energy out on something positive
- Try not to give your attention to the person giving out the negative energy
- Don’t let them see that their hurting you
- Find a distraction
- Talk to someone about it
- Don’t hide from it
Honestly, I believe that some of these things did help me. They helped me over a long period of time, which made me stronger, I don’t really know how to explain it but those that know me personally will know how much it’s helped me just by knowing me over a period of time. I used to get really nervous when being around people who I knew would bully me, but because of the support and these tips that I have learnt from experience, I have been able to get over being as nervous as I was.
They don’t bother me as much anymore and that is something that I am very proud of!
Just know that it does get better, I know that is something that is said a lot and after a while it becomes unbelievable but really it is true! Hold your head high and show them how strong you are. I believe in you!
I’m not saying that it’s not okay to not be okay and to show emotion, of course it is! Your human. I’m just saying that sometimes it helps, it defiantly did with me!
Maybe send in your thoughts on this topic, it would be interesting to see what you all think!
Before I finish this weeks blog post… It’s that time of year again when I decide to publish a quick questionnaire (If that’s what you want to call it?), just to get some opinions on what I’m doing and see how I can improve it. It only takes a minute or two so I will be ever so grateful if you would be so kind to answer this. I feel that it would really help!
Okay, so that’s it from me this week! Thank you so much for the support! There will be a new blog post soon! Have a good week! Much love – Alison xx