It’s got to the point where society sometimes makes you think that you have to pretend to be someone that your not, you have to fit it, you can’t be different, you have to be the same as everyone else, you have to like the same things as everyone else. In schools, before discovering who you really are, most teenagers think that they have to fit in and go the same way as the rest of the crowd.
Reading this, I don’t know if you have ever felt the same way as I did, but in year 7 because I’d been bullied before and didn’t want it to happen again, I thought it’d be best if I tried to fit in. Looking back at it now I wish I was just myself from the beginning because I’m much happier when I’m myself.
I thought that if I was different people would like me more and wouldn’t bully me, obviously I was wrong. But it got to the point where I attempted to fit in with people that were nothing like me. I’d try to fit in with the popular people, sounds sad, and I don’t really know what was going through my head but I tried it, what’s so good about being popular anyway?
But I attempted and failed, I was the joke, being the naive person I was, I thought they were friends, I thought they were nice, but turns out I was the joke. That’s why they were laughing…I didn’t really understand it at first but looking back I do.
After a while I ended up going around on my own, I’d sit on a brick wall and read a book at lunch or break, I’d go to the library at break or lunch, I’d do anything to get away from people, that was the only way I wouldn’t be the joke. It didn’t really change much though because I still got the mick taken out of me in lessons, I’d be the joke, I remember really hating Geography from year 7 to year 9 because of who was in my class, I sat on the same table as them and when it changed they were sat around me, so I was still being picked on, they’d call me names on a daily basis, but instead of saying anything I kept quiet.
In year 9, I started to find myself, I started being myself, I was loud, I still am, I wasn’t afraid to laugh (it’s a bit LOUD). I wasn’t afraid to tell really bad jokes and I definitely was not ashamed of the way I was. I showed the real me to the people who I consider friends and I soon started to open up. I was really loud and energetic. I started to actually enjoy school, and a lot of people noticed the difference in me.
What I’m trying to say is that no matter how badly people treat you, never change who you are, it’s really not worth it, honestly I regret it, I wish I was myself when I was younger because it probably would’ve helped me. Never change for anyone! It’s not worth your happiness. So if you get called a nerd, rock it, who cares? Nerds are cool! If you like a band or singer that everyone hate, don’t worry about it, they’ve probably never even heard of whoever it is that you like. If your a bookworm, rock it! Read as many books as you like, why stop doing something you really like to do if it makes you happy. If someone doesn’t like your eyes, hair or body, stuff them! It’s your body and if your comfortable with yourself then that’s all that matters! Don’t stop yourself from progressing just because of other people!
Right, that’s it from me this week. Hope everyone has a good rest of their week! It’s almost the end of term for Christmas holidays (ahhhhhh!) Thank you to Callie for giving me the idea of writing about this! Much love – Alison xx